It’s hard. Just sitting there, unable to make things happen, unable to change things, unable to move people or schedules or calendars. We live in an age where we can connect at anytime, any place — and yet suddenly we can’t connect with anyone at all. Because, while we have cell phones and emails and Facebook and Twitter and web pages, we still don’t run the world. We don’t make the sun rise. We don’t make it set. And we are not the center of the universe.
In fact, what if I’m not even the main character of my own story?? Crazy!
And yet, I have example after example to prove it. How about you? Truth is, seeing as how I’m rather imperfect in my own little area of this sphere, I’d hate to see what kind of mess I’d make of the entire cosmos.
So if it’s true–that I’m NOT in charge–who is?
Good question. Let’s see… If I create a story, who gets to determine what happens in that story? I can listen to ideas and suggestions from others–and because I’m not perfect, I’d be wise to do so. But can any of the characters really tell me they don’t want me to put them in a certain situation? Tell me they don’t want to have that struggle? Tell me they don’t want to meet those people? Sometimes as writers we claim the characters tell us things; but truth be told, as story creator, it’s my fingers doing the typing.
So who’s creating my story?
The same one who DOES make the sun mark our days. (Gen. 1:16) Who DOES orchestrate situations for the best. (Rom. 8:28) Who DOES know the best for me. (Mt. 6:8) And who won’t let something happen that doesn’t work for His glory (1 Pet. 1:5-7).
In other words, God!
Don’t get me wrong. I’m not blaming God for my bad decisions. My sins? Those are all on me!
But when I mess up, He is not surprised. And for some crazy, unimaginable, merciful, grace-filled reason, He willingly took all those sins on Him. He (Eph. 1:4-5) knew He would adopt me–save me–before He even created the world. He created ME–well, not before the beginning of time–I’m not THAT old (although some of my younger students think I was born before the world had color). But He knew He would create me from the beginning!
So if He created me–and everyone else–if He makes the sun rise and set–if He hung the earth in the universe–and He’s so perfect He doesn’t need anyone else’s advice…I think I can trust Him with my story!
But sometimes I need reminders.
The other day, as I listened to the radio, Lauren Daigle’s lyrics suddenly penetrated my thoughts, and I realized her song said it all for me.
When You don’t move the mountains I’m needing You to move
When You don’t part the waters I wish I could walk through
When You don’t give the answers as I cry out to You
I will trust in You.
— Lauren Daigle’s “I Will Trust in You”
So, yes–it’s out of my hands–but thankfully, it’s ALWAYS in HIS!
And on another note, isn’t it great that we DON’T have to depend on cell phones, emails, Facebook, Twitter, or web pages to connect with Him?
Thank you, Jesus!
This post is the beginning of my new blog category “Tuned to My Heart,” a place for discussions on “Music and other Art of the Masters–and how it speaks to my heart…” I’ve long found that songs, stories, and paintings can help me adjust my thoughts and feelings in ways that a lecture never could.
How about you? Did Lauren Daigle’s “I Will Trust in You” touch you? Is there another song that reminds you of the same truth? Please let me know in the comment box below OR on my Facebook page, www.facebook.com/lessonsinthelittlethings